work and stuff

You know, I hate to blame my lack of activity on work, but I’m going to blame it the after effect of work on my brain and body.

I travel, I do meetings, I set up more meetings , and I process things for future meetings. Then I come home the next day, load up my email and read more emails asking me to set up more meetings. It’s really a never ending cycle, but there are moments where I stare at the blinking voicemail light on my phone and think “fuck it”. Then I realize if I don’t answer that now, then it’ll turn into a screaming person on the phone.

Honestly though, work has been eerily satisfying. In that way where I feel like I’m contributing on a bigger level, in a way where I feel like people are being helped, kind of like a bigger helping feeling. Yeah, that’s it.

So lots of people have no clue what I do. And honestly, I don’t have the typing power to cover it on this blog. But look at it like this, I work for a company that develops cutting edge high end technology for 3D animation and visual effects in film. This company is comprised of under 50 people, and I help most of those people, our R&D team mainly, try to understand what our customers , the FX artists and technical directors, need in production of really terrible high budget movies that milk our paychecks and make us feel unfulfilled in the end.

Yeah, I enjoy it. Because the only thing more amazing than listening to endless technical meetings discussing pixels and rendering power, mico-polygons and and dynamic simulations … is learning this is all because Mr. Un-named Fancy Director wants to see it just a little different when the jeep blows up on the mysterious alien planet.

It’s all a part of life’s work.